Guest Writer - Kim Q. Nguyen

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Shattered Agenda

The siren doesn’t seem to stop
as I continue to mash potatoes,
somewhere on the streets, crime
has followed me to Brooklyn.

My clothes encompass your closet,
poems scatter across your kitchen table,
at some point my life had manifested
itself inside you. We debate war
and your ideas of annihilated peace.

For people who are reflections
of each other, we disagree
whenever the opportunity
presents itself. A friend had asked
me to describe you and I stutter.

How do I tell her that you are
a poem I keep revising with
each mouthed lyric you sway
your head to? The fact that I
find it more and more difficult
to write about you because I
do not know enough vocabulary
in the English language, and soon
will have to resort to the speech
of my first tongue to just simply say
how much I adore
your OCD.

A table displaced
half-an-inch will shatter your
agenda in order to move it back.
You, who demand me to step back
on your foot and not to whistle
because of unknown Russian
Jewish superstition.

But most
of all, how your words have taken
the last minimal amount
of breath that I had managed to steal
back from the very sight of statuesque gypsy
you with your silver rings and necklace
dangling long on your elaborate neck,
cocked to the side for me to nestle into
leaving me with nothing more than
the impulse to exhale.
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Monsoons in a Communist Land



the water stole my flip-flop

on the way back



I swear.



from that girl's house, whom I forget the name to now

That was around the same time – I told myself

I liked her.

You beat me with chopsticks, or, maybe

it was a broom

for being late or for missing a shoe, I can't remember

the water stole my flip-flop



I swear to you.



the water was waist deep, some boys swam in the

street and some in the alleys

I was on the front stoop of that girl's house, whose

parents wouldn't let me come in –

they knew I liked her too.



This was around the same time, a week or so ago

someone took my earrings, you hit me then too.

the water stole my flip-flop



I swear it's true.



Mommy, how times have changed, when

the sting of your hand on my cheek disappears.

Now you are older – and wiser,

does the saying go?

No more physical blows, I know

you were frustrated then,

you release psychological warfare now.



But of course I Love You

when I sat on your bed and we

teared and cried about the misfortunes

of being a woman,

and being a female,

can I blame the same

water

that stole my flip-flop?



Me oi Me I swear to you,

It was the monsoon

in a Communist Land.
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Sex Without Kissing
for Sharon Olds


you are right; it is hard to believe in
sex without love
But, you see, this is nothing new
to me.
I have seen it before
and many times over
Some hormonal impulse mistaken
for the real thing
the act of pleasure
over and over and over…
and over
Until – the ultimate climax of a drunken play
Yes, I have seen sex without love

But kissing, can you imagine?
Without kissing?
I am puzzled as well,
Isn’t kissing the initiator?
this act of intimacy – lips on lips
tongues dancing with anticipation
saliva moisture from the mouth of my lover
the scent of breathe inhale
and exhale
no, there was no kissing
only FUCKING – does that sound too grotesque?
Well, that’s what it was.
simply Was.

And after, there was no moment of caress
an immediate need to pull out the join parts
Oh, can you imagine it? i try not to myself
Douching- yep, was the seductive word to
whisper. a wet cloth to wipe off the private
areas when done. It’s funny don’t you think?
That we can be naked on the bed, then lock
the door to the bathroom. Please don’t think
of me as, as, as …
A tramp, A whore, A slut, whatever the town
may call it today, i was taken by a desire, desire
to be relieved. But inside the washroom now,
i could not look myself in the mirror. And i
will not be able to look at myself for another
hour or so. And i know this because, I have
done this before.
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